Why Watching A Lot Of Tarot Card Love Readings Can Be So Addicting But Also Damaging In The Long Run

When I first started my spiritual journey, I was extremely nervous about seeing the outcomes that would come out in tarot readings. It takes a while to learn how to interpret the messages that come through because you have to learn to trust yourself, your guides, and the cards. Sometimes that involves intuition, channeled messages, and visions. Instead of taking a class or doing more research on how to get started, I ended up diving right in. At first, I didn't understand the depth and how much more effort it takes to be fully connected. Like using meditation, reiki healing, crystals, psychic development courses, inner healing, etc to have a better connection with your guides. Tarot is way deeper than a card game. Not only did I try to mold the messages into what I saw fit best, but I also didn't fully trust the messages I was receiving. Molding messages to fit what "I" wanted them to mean made me come up with false scenarios and caused me to get stuck in relationships and situations that I wasn't supposed to be in. Let me explain... I became obsessed with collective love readings. I was nervous about doing my own personal readings in the beginning so I started off watching YouTube tarot. At first I started with general readings but one day I looked specifically for Cancer zodiac sign love readings. As I was watching the reading, my heart sunk into my chest when she said, "your ex is coming back into your life and I see that he has changed and is going to beg for your love by proposing to you." Before the video, I was over him, after the video, I now have a Twin Flame that is going to magically appear back into my life. At that moment, I was too stunned to speak! I listened to many different readers say "this is your person", "this person wants to marry you", "These are the letters of your soulmate and the date/time you will meet again", and "this is your twin flame and you just need to hold on a little bit longer before a union happens." Come to find out, he most definitely wasn't my twin flame and I held on for absolutely no reason at all. Holding on actually caused me to prolong my true love coming into my life. Do I believe that Twin Flames are real? Yes, I definitely believe in Twin Flames and Soulmates. Where I missed the mark at is thinking I get to decide who that person is or should be instead of waiting on divine timing and trusting that the right person will be guided into my life without my need to control the situation. My emotions and my mind went into a whirlwind. I didn't know what to think of it but it definitely sounded convincing. I started thinking "Is he really coming back and WTF is a Twin Flame?" I started researching Twin Flames and Soulmates and I listened to every single love reading that was posted for Cancers that day. Almost every single reading contradicted each other yet I still questioned "is this man coming back or not?" Every day I looked on YouTube to see if a new video was posted. I also noticed that I only followed YouTube tarot readers which made my ex coming back sound more convincing. I wanted to know how he felt about me? What his karma was? What I needed to do for him to come back? Why he did what he did to me? All of these videos I used as mental and emotional validation. At this point, I was in the 2 of Swords energy.

Giving desperate and attachment issue vibes, right? I know! At that time, I was going through the dark night of the soul and my emotions were all over the place. I wanted someone to come to rescue me from the pain but now I know that was a journey that I needed to do alone. Anyways... Then one day I was casually strolling through Tik Tok and a Tik Tok tarot reading pops up of a love reading. I thought, "there are tarot readers on Tik Tok?" Here I go even more down the rabbit hole. I was on Tik Tok tarot for hours every single day looking for only love readings. Again, there were so many messages about my love life that were contradicting each other but I was strolling past the readers that weren't validating my emotions. I was so addicted to what other readers were saying that I stopped listening to my own intuition and my personal readings. At this point, I had already started doing my own personal love readings. I had all of these love oracle card decks and I did readings almost every day. I was doing this before I knew how to fully connect with my guides, trust my guides, and know the full meanings behind the cards. We think that the meaning of the cards that the book says is exactly what your guides are trying to tell you and that is not always true and that is where other psychic abilities come in. In my case, my guides had to teach me a lesson. My guides are funny but they also don't play when it comes to me learning my lessons. They would give me cards that made it seem like there would be a reconciliation but when I look back at the photos that I took of my readings, it was right in front of my face that I was completely wrong. For example, I thought the 6 of Cups meant someone was coming back from the past, though that is one of the meanings, for me, it meant I needed to heal inner-child wounds and release toxic energies from the past in order for new love to come in. I wasn't looking at the surrounding cards and the story behind them so when I saw The Lovers, 6 of Cups, and The Hierophant, it meant marriage with a person from the past for me! I would also ask the same questions over and over again that fit into this box of what I wanted to hear. I also didn't have a structure to the cards so it was hard for me to form an actual message. Eventually, my guides were like ok, since you're not listening, here goes another lesson. The lesson would come and I would be like but wait, I thought you said...? In the past, I have also gone to a psychic that told me that someone that is way better is coming once I release the past and I was like "Yea, OK. That's not what my personal readings are saying LOL!" Come to find out, she was absolutely right and I ended up dodging a huge bullet. That was definitely an ego-death moment. The big thing that tarot readers don't tell you is that you can have karmic soulmates and karmic soul ties. So when I was seeing the soulmate, past-life lover, and reconciliation cards, I thought that meant he was my soulmate. What my guides were really trying to tell me is that he is my past-life karmic soulmate and I needed to learn my lesson from that relationship in this lifetime to attract my actual soulmate. All of the time I spent thinking about and trying to manifest someone back into my life was actually detrimental to me and my life path. I was trying to control what my spirit guides were trying to block and protect me from for my highest good. We aren't able to see what they are doing behind the scenes for us and that's why, at times, we try to control the outcome! Yes, it could be true that an ex does miss you, they are sorry for what they did to you, loves you, and wants to be with you again but that doesn't mean that they should be in your life or in your energy. A reading like this is only telling you how their energy feels about you and not how they will actually treat you and if they are good for you. It's like the hidden truth that they might not display outwardly. A lot of the time, if we are questioning a past lover that we know was toxic, we deserve better and your guides are trying to deliver that to you but they won't if you don't clear that ex energy and heal from the lessons that it was supposed to teach you. This is a hard one. Trust me, I know!! A collective reading could also be talking about your actual soulmate or twin flame but it might not be the person that you think it is. If I didn't watch all of those love readings and trusted myself, my guides, and my intuition, I wouldn't have even considered him being in my life again. To this day, I don't like doing love readings on my personal love life and I don't watch love readings anymore. Not saying that love readings are bad because they are not, I just don't want to conflict my own energies as I did in the past. The reason why I am telling my story regarding love readings is that I see how many readings people want regarding love and how hard it is to keep an open mind when we don't hear what we want to. Love readings are also the number one reading that most people want to get when they go to a psychic or tarot reader. We want to know how, when, who, and where but usually it is all about free will and divine timing. What I learned as a tarot card watcher and a tarot card reader is that no matter what anyone else says, you have to use your own discernment, and trusting your intuition is key. Now that I do collective readings, I understand that the messages are not going to resonate with everyone and you have to be careful with what energy the reader uses. Meaning digging into karmic energy can attract negative energies and spirits which is why a lot of viewers stay stuck or addicted to them. Normally when I am done with someone, I am just done. But for some reason, I had a hard time letting go of him and his energy. What I know now is that watching a lot of different collective love readings causes a lot of confusion and also causes you to get stuck in the past. Every time I heard a reading about karmics and exes, it made me replay the past in my mind causing me to be stuck and obsessed with the outcome. There is no forward movement if you are stuck in the past. Though we all would love to know what someone else's karmic lessons are and how they are going to suffer, that is also low vibrational and negative energy. Their karma is between them and the universe (God or whatever source you believe in) and trying to tap into someone else's energy, especially with negative intent can cause you to have another karmic lesson form into your life. Also, some readers jump right into tarot without fully understanding it like I did and they don't understand the energies they are actually working with. Tarot watchers aren't told that a tarot reader should ask for psychic protection and clear the energies before they do a reading. Not everyone does that which can attract unwanted energies to come into the reading. So when a reader says they "cleared the deck", "meditated on the cards", or "cleansed the energies" then they are more likely to ask for protection from dark energies before a reading. There is definitely good and there is evil. In my personal opinion as a tarot reader, I believe it's best to watch and work with readers that use light and love energy in their readings and also get personal love readings over constantly watching collective ones (watching love readings is fine in moderation). If you really like love readings, try not to take every message to heart or watch the general love readings over readings that dig into an ex or toxic karmic energy. You will be able to tell the difference between these readers by the questions they are answering and the energy surrounding the cards. I do believe there are many wonderful readers and psychics out there and I have learned so much information from other psychics, lightworkers, holistic practitioners, and spiritualists. There is absolutely nothing wrong with using and watching tarot but there is a lot more that goes into tarot than some understand. I have grown a lot as a person and have gained a lot of wisdom from getting readings and doing readings as well. Getting wisdom and guidance from tarot readings is great but make sure the readings are helping and guiding you and that you are using your own intuition and discernment when applying readings to your life.

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